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I could whinge about how life (or rather Jamie) seems to enjoy kicking me back down when I'm up, but I won't. I'm going to smile, and just talk to myself on here about what's been said and what I'm gonna do.
*laughs* Yay for melodrama. Meh, Jamie txt me tuesday night. I was hoping never to hear from the bastard ever again, guess it goes to show I can never get what I want! Asked me to go up for the weekend at the end of next month, apologised, said I'd get my money back. I haven't replied. But it's been playing on my mind the whole time. I hate not replying, when he's being a complete twat I can justify not replying to myself, but when he's being ok, even if he obviously is after something, it's harder. A lot harder. I know I have plenty of reasons to hate him, but I can't! I don't know why, I can only hate him after he's done something bad, then I just feel indifferent.
I don't want to talk to him, but I want my money back! It's debating whether £60 is worth letting him back in my life for. Although I suppose it works conversely and ask whether £60 is worth blocking him out of my life to begin with, but that's not the matter in question.
I'm probably going up to Leeds anyway for the Uni open day. I suppose I could always say that I'm gonna be in Leeds those days, you want to see me then come to Leeds. Means I'm not going out of my way and I'll get to see what he wants off me! Gah I'm so cynical about him now! I remember when I thought the world of him!
Talking of Open Days went to Cardiff yesterday! Wow-ness! So much pretty-ness (and social-ness! Not that I'd be drawn to a Uni purely on it's bars and clubs................) Quite scary actually, really kicked in that I actually am going to be applying to Uni end of this year! I've been looking into Unis for a while now so it had become slightly unreal, not anymore! Feel all grown up!
Although wasn't happy with my mum. Her and my dad have been on 2 holidays already this year and she was whinging about how much it's gonna cost for me to go to Uni! Mind, she finally gave me back £50 of the nearly £200 she owes me! Only 5months later! I should know by now though what my mum and dad are like with money. I'm hoping to God I can learn from their mistakes. I never want to end up living like that again. *realises not many people will know what she's actually on about*
Went to see year 9 perform Blood Brothers tonight up at school. I love the play, and they were really good. Wasn't too sure about some of the casting though. My sister was in it, wouldn't let my mum go see it (my dad just wouldn't bother going anyway) but told me I pretty much had to go! She does that quite often bless her, much as she pretends she doesn't love me! Also ended up volunteering to help run a year 7 play this coming term, which should be fun. I might do that instead of work experience seeing as that's turning into a bugger to organise, my head of year doesn't want me missing school in term time but there's no way I'm going to a primary school last 3 days of the year! It's pointless, I take down displays, make up new books etc. Been there done that and got bored!
Hmmmmmmm I'll leave it there anyway, doubt anybody even reads this far so it make no difference to me! Don't worry, I'll be back to doing quizzes soon, and not clogging up your page with essays like this!
*laughs* Yay for melodrama. Meh, Jamie txt me tuesday night. I was hoping never to hear from the bastard ever again, guess it goes to show I can never get what I want! Asked me to go up for the weekend at the end of next month, apologised, said I'd get my money back. I haven't replied. But it's been playing on my mind the whole time. I hate not replying, when he's being a complete twat I can justify not replying to myself, but when he's being ok, even if he obviously is after something, it's harder. A lot harder. I know I have plenty of reasons to hate him, but I can't! I don't know why, I can only hate him after he's done something bad, then I just feel indifferent.
I don't want to talk to him, but I want my money back! It's debating whether £60 is worth letting him back in my life for. Although I suppose it works conversely and ask whether £60 is worth blocking him out of my life to begin with, but that's not the matter in question.
I'm probably going up to Leeds anyway for the Uni open day. I suppose I could always say that I'm gonna be in Leeds those days, you want to see me then come to Leeds. Means I'm not going out of my way and I'll get to see what he wants off me! Gah I'm so cynical about him now! I remember when I thought the world of him!
Talking of Open Days went to Cardiff yesterday! Wow-ness! So much pretty-ness (and social-ness! Not that I'd be drawn to a Uni purely on it's bars and clubs................) Quite scary actually, really kicked in that I actually am going to be applying to Uni end of this year! I've been looking into Unis for a while now so it had become slightly unreal, not anymore! Feel all grown up!
Although wasn't happy with my mum. Her and my dad have been on 2 holidays already this year and she was whinging about how much it's gonna cost for me to go to Uni! Mind, she finally gave me back £50 of the nearly £200 she owes me! Only 5months later! I should know by now though what my mum and dad are like with money. I'm hoping to God I can learn from their mistakes. I never want to end up living like that again. *realises not many people will know what she's actually on about*
Went to see year 9 perform Blood Brothers tonight up at school. I love the play, and they were really good. Wasn't too sure about some of the casting though. My sister was in it, wouldn't let my mum go see it (my dad just wouldn't bother going anyway) but told me I pretty much had to go! She does that quite often bless her, much as she pretends she doesn't love me! Also ended up volunteering to help run a year 7 play this coming term, which should be fun. I might do that instead of work experience seeing as that's turning into a bugger to organise, my head of year doesn't want me missing school in term time but there's no way I'm going to a primary school last 3 days of the year! It's pointless, I take down displays, make up new books etc. Been there done that and got bored!
Hmmmmmmm I'll leave it there anyway, doubt anybody even reads this far so it make no difference to me! Don't worry, I'll be back to doing quizzes soon, and not clogging up your page with essays like this!
