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Well.......
May. 1st, 2005 10:48 pmEver felt your whole life is crashing around your head?
Of course you have, everyone has once in a while, especially those of us with LJs, the whole purpose of these is to bitch about how crap life is right?
Even so, you get to put up with me whinging like fuck. Whether any of you care or not doesn't matter, at least I'm safe in the knowledge that I'm clogging up your friend's page!
Reasons why my life's so shit:
1)Nobody cares about me
And I know at least one person who's actually bothered to read this far will say they do. But you might, but not in the way I need someone to care about me. You've seen the quizzes I've taken, I need the attention, I'm at high risk of a psychiatric disorder! *laughs* I sound like I need fucking sectioning don't I?
2)My parents marriage is not as secure as I thought
Turns out my dad asked my mum for a divorce today. She's pretty certain they've talked things through, but if he's said so once...... And I know half of you who read this only have one parent but bollocks, most of you were really young when it happened, you don't know how weird it is for me to experience this. I've spent so many years when I was younger telling my mum to leave my dad because he's a no good piece of shit. And he is. But he's still my dad and it's still really fucked up seeing them like this.
3)My head of year doesn't think me capable
Ever since I told him I want to apply to Cambridge he's been sceptical, and he won't let me do 4 A levels, or tell me what he thinks of my chances of getting in. Nice eh? That my head of year can't even say Sure, apply to Cambridge, it's only one option even if you don't get in!
4)I push away people who might be able to help me.
I'm sorry to all of you, anybody I've hurt by this post, anybody I've been off with. I've really been cruel to some people lately and I want to apologise.
I really do care about you all, I've just been feeling very self absorbed.
And yes, I know that most of you will say how much worse your problems are than mine, but bollocks to you. Sure I admire you for coping but are you really gonna begrudge me my one moment of really breakign down? Really saying what I feel?
Of course you have, everyone has once in a while, especially those of us with LJs, the whole purpose of these is to bitch about how crap life is right?
Even so, you get to put up with me whinging like fuck. Whether any of you care or not doesn't matter, at least I'm safe in the knowledge that I'm clogging up your friend's page!
Reasons why my life's so shit:
1)Nobody cares about me
And I know at least one person who's actually bothered to read this far will say they do. But you might, but not in the way I need someone to care about me. You've seen the quizzes I've taken, I need the attention, I'm at high risk of a psychiatric disorder! *laughs* I sound like I need fucking sectioning don't I?
2)My parents marriage is not as secure as I thought
Turns out my dad asked my mum for a divorce today. She's pretty certain they've talked things through, but if he's said so once...... And I know half of you who read this only have one parent but bollocks, most of you were really young when it happened, you don't know how weird it is for me to experience this. I've spent so many years when I was younger telling my mum to leave my dad because he's a no good piece of shit. And he is. But he's still my dad and it's still really fucked up seeing them like this.
3)My head of year doesn't think me capable
Ever since I told him I want to apply to Cambridge he's been sceptical, and he won't let me do 4 A levels, or tell me what he thinks of my chances of getting in. Nice eh? That my head of year can't even say Sure, apply to Cambridge, it's only one option even if you don't get in!
4)I push away people who might be able to help me.
I'm sorry to all of you, anybody I've hurt by this post, anybody I've been off with. I've really been cruel to some people lately and I want to apologise.
I really do care about you all, I've just been feeling very self absorbed.
And yes, I know that most of you will say how much worse your problems are than mine, but bollocks to you. Sure I admire you for coping but are you really gonna begrudge me my one moment of really breakign down? Really saying what I feel?
