FFS!

Well, I turned my fone on yesterday and had a txt from Jamie saying he'd been drunk when he txt me and could we still be friends. Well, I didn't know what to do so I ignored him *laughs* decided it was better than telling him I didn't know. I also txt Jace and Dawn asking for their advice! They both told me to ignore him so I was going to. Was in the middle of writing a txt when I got a phone call, having deleted Jamie's number I didn't twig and answered. It was him asking if I'd got his txt. When I told him I had but I didn't know he starts screaming at me to fuck off and calling me a slag. I then got a txt off him about 5minutes later with more abuse and telling me to chuck myself under a bus. Charming eh? So I replied (being quite patronising with a lot of "darling" and "dear") telling him that that was exactly the reason why I didn't know and that I never wanted to hear from him again. And I thought that was the end of it.

But no. Today I finished work and checked my fone and I had a txt. It was from him apologising for last night and asking once again if I'd be friends with him.

I always thought that I'd be the one to cling to him, unable to let go of him because he means so much to me. In fact, it's the other way around, he keeps coming back to me. After shorter and shorter periods of time. And that fact makes me so happy. Obviously I'm just irresistable ^_~ Seriously though I'm so glad I can be the stronger one out of all this. Although yeah, it's upsetting me not knowing where I stand, at least I'm not constantly apologising and begging to him.

Gah exams tomorrow, have done hardly no revision! And I have drama and RE work that needs to be done too. Hmmmm I CBA. I think exams are more important! That's my excuse anyway >.>